Well poker has kinda sucked lately, my head just isn't in it for some reason.  I took the entire weekend off from playing because I was busy with family stuff, and when I hit the tables this week I played pretty bad.  I'm not too sure why either.  I'm not playing horribly or anything, just making very minor mistakes and can't seem to stay focused.  I guess its because I've been really busy with shopping for a new place to live, having people in and out of my condo, the car accident, booking trips etc.  It just has messed with my routine a bit and I seem to be thinking of other things while I'm playing.  Tomorrow I'm going to take some time to go over my database, look for errors, and get back to playing well.  I've had a decent first half of the month, so I want to close it off strong.

I mentioned booking trips, me and Julie are going to visit Two and his girlfriend in Portland in the beginning of September.  A lot of you reading this know who Two so I'm looking forward to the trip.  While I'm there we might be playing in a 1k Tourny at some casino near his place.  He's trying to win me a seat this month so hopefully he pulls through.  Aside from poker I'm sure we'll just chill and catch up. Its been a while since he moved back to the States.  For those who don't know, me and Two lived together for about 4 years.. and had some crazy poker ventures together.

Its taking me forever to write this blog because I'm sweating the nose bleed games on Full Tilt right now.  The games have been nuts this week.  Its been fun to watch especially because they are playing no limit holdem.  Those big games have been dry for a while so its cool to see them running.  When I watch I really try to focus on player ranges and how they are reacting to other players at the table.  A lot of these guys are on such another level its tricky to figure out what they are thinking.  Its crazy how a lot of them used to play low stakes and now are having million dollar swings... maybe I'll be writing a blog about sitting in a 500/1k game.

I read a cool blog by cardrunners pro Brian Townsend.  If you have a sec give it a quick read.  Whenever I read a blog like that it makes me think of what path and direction I want to take in my poker career.  People ask me all the time, "Are you planning on doing this forever?".  And to be honest, I have no idea.  I'm not a person who thinks about the future too much, I kinda go with the flow.  With poker I think i'll just keep playing till I don't like it anymore.  Who knows when that will happen.  Maybe one day I'll wake up and won't wanna play anymore, and I'll quit.  But I don't see that happening for a while.  I don't think its that I truly LOVE poker, I think I love the game and everything that comes with it.  If there wasn't money involved in the game, I probably would of quit the game a while ago.  I mean if I could make a living playing golf, hockey or any other sport.. I'd probably be doing that.  But with poker, there's nothing like the money and freedom that comes with it.  Its comforting to know, that in the future whatever I decide to do, I always know I have the ability to fall back and be a full time pro.  We'll see how it goes I guess.  For the time being I love doing what I do and plan to get bigger and better. Because I don't think I've even scratched the surface of how good I can be.

Going to catch on shows from my pvr now.. later